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"Berpenat lelahlah kerana Allah, sesungguhnya kesenangan itu selepas kepenatan. 

Jangan berdukacita kerana hidup ini meletihkan, kerana demikianlah hidup ini diciptakan."

-Imam Syafie-

dari kecik sampai besar satu nasihat ayah yang berulang kali ayah sebut tak pernah berhenti,
"Dalam apa benda yang kita buat pun, dalam hati mesti niat kerana Allah, Lillahitaala, tak ada lain. Lagi satu, mana pun kamu pergi nanti bila dah besar, untuk belajar, untuk kerja, ingat yang kamu bawak nama Islam, nama ayah dengan nama mama, nama keluarga kita, jadi jaga diri bagus-bagus" 
aku pulak dari kecik sampai besar respon sama tak pernah berubah,
"Ya ayah" *angguk angguk*

Tapi masa kecik tu apa yang aku faham adalah, dalam setiap tindakan kita tu, kita kena ingat yang Allah sentiasa ada perhatikan kita. You know, along the lines of, "Jangan buat ni, dosa! nanti Allah marah!"
*betul laa jugak tu kan, but not quite the message that ayah wanted to convey to me, i know now, and here's the story!



I have this weird thing with people and motivation and inspiration, if you get what i mean.
kind of like i get inspired by people around me, particularly with people i am fond of.
(read: people i love)
ahh.. NOW you get what i mean? haha. okay okay.
so yeah.. I tend to try to be better when I am around people I love because for me, they deserve to get the best (especially from me), as in my eyes, they ARE the best. This is yet another incurable condition of mine where i can see no evil in the people that i love. haha.
(inn admit it, you are just a hardcore hopeless romantic *facepalm*)


'apa bha yang kau mau cakap sebenarnya ni inn?'
heheh, mesti ada yang geram suda ni kan :D

I used to want to change for the better for the sake of other people
(read: a certain special someone?)
which is good, i guess? but not quite right.
we should REALLY change for the better for the sake of Allah. Lillahitaala.
because then, we would never lose the purpose of doing whatever it is we're doing, as He is always there, whereas when we wanted to change for other people, if somehow someday that person decided to leave us, we would then lose the inspiration to change for the better. What good would that do?


Its actually very simple logic.


tanya diri sendiri ja lah, what is the purpose of our life actually?
of this life? of doing everything we are doing right at this moment?
what's the reason behind it?
is it for us? for other people? for other people to see and judge us?
hmm..



kita hidup di dunia ni boleh diibaratkan macam kita tengah menabung, kumpul duit sebab kita berkenan sangat dengan satu benda ni, dan kita pasti bila kita berjaya dapat benda tu dalam tangan, itu adalah satu kebahagiaan hakiki untuk kita.

kumpul duit = pahala
kebahagiaan hakiki = syurga



tak complicated laa harapnya analogi aku bagi tuh :]
macam status update seorang kawan ni...
"Nak pergi syurga dengan tiket termahal!" 
(Farah Nur, mohon share ye? hehehe :D)


Lagi satu benda best bila sentiasa Lillahitaala ni, kau jadi takkan penat untuk terus buat sesuatu benda tu,
(macam study untuk exam yang berderet next week untuk 3rd year Ainshams students)
Sebab bila buat Lillahitaala, free camtu ja dapat tambah pahala!
Tapi buat benda berfaedah lah, jangan lah ada yang baca ni terus dalam hati cakap,
"Kalau macam tu, aku tidur ja lah satu hari ni, tapi niat Lillahitaala sebab free ja dapat pahala macam si inn tulis dalam blog dia" 

do not be daft and lame serta loyar buruk dan cetek fikiran please? :]
ehh? terkasar bahasa? sorry. but i just wanted to be clear.

ini dia superhero nombor satu, paling hensem di dunia dalam hati.

rindu ayah actually. hence the blogpost. 

trimakaseh ayah for drilling our minds with those words endlessly dari kecik sampai sekarang!

sorry it took so long to really get the exact meaning of what you've been telling the three of us since we were cute little girls, now all grown up to become such refined ladies, insyaAllah! muehehe :D