**entri ini bukan entri yang emo, sila baca dengan nada gembira. sekian.
So basically my walk home is MY time of the day.
I'd be completely lost in another dimension (kononnyalah)
So i usually prefer to walk all by myself with those magical things that magically lets you listen to music on-the-go plugged snugly into my ears. *sniggers*
And yeah... sorry to the classmates if all you guys think i'm snubbing you lot.
I'm very shy actually (no seriously, the me you "read" online is totally different with the me of flesh & blood), i only let myself go bonkers when i'm with my close friends. and when i say bonkers i really mean BONKERS as in lagi gila dari the me you "read" on twitter. *snigger sumore*
So, sorry again if i seem kinda snobbish. Do say Hi whenever you see me wandering around all by myself :]
okay. straying wayyy out of topic here. where was i?
So.. when you choose to walk all by yourselves everyday, it can either be so magnificently uplifting or downright depressing actually.
Macam tadi, i saw Apek (bukan nama sebenar) dengan Ehsan (bukan nama sebenar) walking together, chatting and laughing as chums normally do. and then i saw Lily, Nonong, Veney, Jo (note: semua bukan nama sebenar) walking side by side, stopping by some shops looking at some stuff, basically just having simple fun.
Made me go a bit sad. melancholic, i guess.
I miss being around my friends.
I don't mind being alone. I enjoy being with myself.
Seriously. I am actually very skilled in the Art of Being Alone (aiseh!).
to the point where my mum is actually very worried of me being too independant. heheh.
But maybe i'm done isolating myself. and i'm done reflecting on my mistakes.
and also, i'm done remembering the past.
and maybe, just maybe.. i'm done with myself having difficulties to trust people.
I don't know. I don't know, for sure.
but maybe i'll try.
I wish someone would just come and tell me in my face that it's okay to let myself loose and to just wear my heart on my sleeves or something like that and tell me, I won't get hurt or whatever. I don't know :]
tak pun, tiba-tiba ada jejaka berkasut Jack Purcell offer to walk me home every other day, maybe? muehehe ;]
no, NOT just the two of us laa, that's for sure. aku cukup tau, itu memang tak boleh. impian ini hanya mainan dalam kepala. a girl can dream, right?